2005 I Became a Real Man
You know for the months of October and November I was on the verge of killing somebody. However, the thought process of jail time slowed those thoughts down at an incredible rate of speed. I couldn’t function, I was loosing my family and the only turn I could make was to God. God came through for me in my roughest times. He physically and mentally broke me down and began the process of building me up. He is AWESOME that all I can say. My mistakes should not define me for the rest of my life. I went through something and I dealt with it the best possible way. My mid-thirties have grown me up in such a way that I no longer see the world the same. I no longer see my wife the same, or a sex object. We both were going through a tremendous amount of stress and the devil was living in our home playing with our lives. The last six months of 2005 had me in its grips and my focus was not were it should have been. I made amends from my process and evolved from the process and found out I am no longer that boy that was immature for the first 6 months of 2005. I saw my son mature this year and become a young man looking for direction. I almost took myself out of the picture. My daughter has had a turbulent 2004-2005 and now she’s delivered from the demons that tried to control her. God is good all the time and I just wanted to put this out there for someone who may have gone through something in 2005.
