Self Examination
I can not get along with my self! That’s a bold statement to say, but I am trying to challenge my self by taking a critical look at my faults. It is an unusual statement to say because most people tend to think that there are certain folk they do not get along with for certain reasons. For me I don’t have that problem. I get along great with my peers, however with myself, it is a war that I started in my head years ago and is still raging. The war that started in my head has caused me to hurt, be hurt and conjure up new methods with intensity to display my hurt in ways that I will receive sympathy.
God says that we are not to be critical, yet I believe that self examination to better one’s self is on the menu for me to eat and digest. Of course I am not where I use to be but I have come a long way, praise God. When a person judge’s themselves, you are offending your spirit. This was me 100% and it has started to take a toll on my mind body and spirit. Notice I said it was me. I am in that process of repairing the damage that I have caused, by the grace of God.
Being critical of your self like I do, is not a good attribute to have. I have to be happy on how far we come instead of how far I have to go on my quest through this life. I can not look for everything wrong about me. I am not a hunter with a gun looking for me in a show down. I am on a journey to be happy about my progress from this point on. I will not be on my own case. I will give my self a little bit of mercy and grace and live life on how God attended.
I often felt like, if I did not feel wrong I did not feel right. I have literally became addicted to guilt. It’s a crying shame, but I told you this is a self examination. 1 Corr 4:1 tells it all, it pave the way for me to come out of this way of thinking. I have to prove my self worthy with trust. It’s not my job to judge my self. God doesn’t judge himself! My prayer is, “God you convict me, you convince, you correct me, you help me because I can not do it by myself.” This is what I say when I get into my dark mode of self examination. Guilt and condemnation is something that presses you down, convictions will life us up out of that sin. Praise God.
If God can not help me, I can not be help. Feeling guilty does not changes anything. He will deliver us little by little. He is dealing with me from the inside to keep me from dealing with those thoughts again. Stay tuned.
I can not get along with my self! That’s a bold statement to say, but I am trying to challenge my self by taking a critical look at my faults. It is an unusual statement to say because most people tend to think that there are certain folk they do not get along with for certain reasons. For me I don’t have that problem. I get along great with my peers, however with myself, it is a war that I started in my head years ago and is still raging. The war that started in my head has caused me to hurt, be hurt and conjure up new methods with intensity to display my hurt in ways that I will receive sympathy.
God says that we are not to be critical, yet I believe that self examination to better one’s self is on the menu for me to eat and digest. Of course I am not where I use to be but I have come a long way, praise God. When a person judge’s themselves, you are offending your spirit. This was me 100% and it has started to take a toll on my mind body and spirit. Notice I said it was me. I am in that process of repairing the damage that I have caused, by the grace of God.
Being critical of your self like I do, is not a good attribute to have. I have to be happy on how far we come instead of how far I have to go on my quest through this life. I can not look for everything wrong about me. I am not a hunter with a gun looking for me in a show down. I am on a journey to be happy about my progress from this point on. I will not be on my own case. I will give my self a little bit of mercy and grace and live life on how God attended.
I often felt like, if I did not feel wrong I did not feel right. I have literally became addicted to guilt. It’s a crying shame, but I told you this is a self examination. 1 Corr 4:1 tells it all, it pave the way for me to come out of this way of thinking. I have to prove my self worthy with trust. It’s not my job to judge my self. God doesn’t judge himself! My prayer is, “God you convict me, you convince, you correct me, you help me because I can not do it by myself.” This is what I say when I get into my dark mode of self examination. Guilt and condemnation is something that presses you down, convictions will life us up out of that sin. Praise God.
If God can not help me, I can not be help. Feeling guilty does not changes anything. He will deliver us little by little. He is dealing with me from the inside to keep me from dealing with those thoughts again. Stay tuned.
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