Edging God out (EGO)

I came face to face with the struggle of self acceptance in this life. I tend to go back and forth with my faith. I believe it has caused me to lose some favor with my God and His mercy. That’s never a good thing and for me to keep doing this, it is not pleasing to Him who I serve with all of my heart and soul.
Not being in his grace for whatever my wrong doings were, will only make me reap what I sow and cry His name louder and ask, “why me God?” I understand that Jesus Himself was not exempt from life’s perils, so what makes me think I will not have to go through something? I will tell you, “ego.” Ego should stand for, “edging God out.” No longer will I do that, the price is too high for me to bare.

I am currently paying for the words I spoke, howeve it is deserved. Cursing his name was definitely a wrong move because I was angry and being immature with someone else, that hurt’s Him and the ones surrounding me for support. Yet he still forgave me and gave me an audible ultimatum that I will never soon forget. I do not wish to share that conversation, however let me say that it wasn’t a good outcome if I did it again. It scared me and made me man up and take responsibilities for my actions, as I try to get back in his good graces.

I am the child and I know how my own kids feel when they are disobedient and have to be chastised. This time the punishment was warranted, however I am on the road to recovery as I take a new turn in my life. Edging God out is not recommended by anyone. It’s not good for you, your family and especially your soul. He spared me this time, the next time I get tempted to edge him out, my time could be up with out the chance of asking for forgiveness and that will lead me to one place, Hell.